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All I want is to be who I want to be
To breathe the air that gasp mi free
To live the dreams my mind conceived
To see the world in love and peace

Let us not take love for granted
For many awaits the touch for hopes and inspirations
Dream. Dare . Do
Let the sun burns through the horizon and the stars to sparkle
Face each day with a smle for others
Never let yesterday's disappointment overshadow tomorrow's dreams....

*-=__It is not about loving a perfect person...
...but to love an imperfect person perfectly __=-*

***__________. dreams of the sparkled stars____::***

::_memories unforgottened_::
June 2004
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Friday, November 19, 2004

+-The . A's . Dilemma -+

+-The . A's . Dilemma -+

Haiz....veri long never blog liaoz.....so mani things and thoughts that i wanted to note down but didn't haf the time to (all thankx to exams). Aniwae yea~ not supposed to come online to blog wanz until after exam, but decided to break my own 'grounding'. Cos i can't take it animore lez.....For almost like the past whole month, I've been isolating myself away from all temptations, haven been going out except to sch to study and haven been doing ani other things other then studying!!!! Oh no~ tis sound so much like a nerd~ but wat to do~ i dun haf a choice...Im at the extreme of finding buddha's leg to hug~ so of cos muz work doubly hard larz~ Haiz~ shouldn't haf wasted so much time and not start studying earlier~ If oni i had more time.... Haiz~ things are oni treasured when they are lost~

Aniwae came out wif tis conclusion tat studying is realli bad for health manz~Both physically and mentally!!! I feel so unhealthy recently. Always sit there for the whole day, so little excercise~ Eyesight's getting bad (there goes my 6/6 record), headaches and gastric pains are acting up even more frequently then usual. My appetite is getting from bad to worse~I tink im even starting to find eating a chore manz~Suffering from serious insomia resulting in eyebags and pimple outbreaks~ Mentally, Im getting more and more senile by the day, more and more cranky, blurer and blurer, more and more can't-b-bothered and unfeelingless~ Haiz~ bad bad bad!!! I want my life back!!!!

Aniwae haf finished most of the papers. Oni left two more physics paper~ Haiz....im so sianz of studying~ fell like stopping liaoz~ but i scared i will regret. Dun ask mi how are the papers cos i dunno. Somehow veri complex feelings abt tis exam~ I've prepared much much more then usual and i dun realli find the papers veri veri difficult~ I noe im not gonna ace them or flunk but neither am I gonna get what i expected. Dunno larz~ Not that i dunno how to ans but some how dun haf much trust over my performance~ Even those ans and subj that I feel rather certain about I dun dare to dream of a good grade ( and I dun mean an A as a good grade) Mayb is before that I expect too much le~ Aniwae to avoid greater disappointment~ I shall not haf much expectation and I shall b prepared to face the worst =(

Okaez~ Left 6 more days to the end of paper~ So near yet so far~ I look forward to the end of exams cos i juz wan it to b over~ Aniwae i've alreadi got so mani things lined up to occuppy mi for the whole of dec at least~ Haiz~ expect myself to b so excited abt the post exam activites~ but somehow I dunno y im not eager at all. I should b excited abt going back to Yv, having all the parties and gatherings~ But hehz~ Mayb is schedule too tight lez~ I dun seemed to even haf the time to do things that I realli wan to do on my own~ I can't even find a decent time to go do my hair~ do some necessary shopping, or even juz hang around free and easy~ Im too booked up!!! I wan to do many things, like learn dance, go for kickboxing and aerobic classes, wakeboarding, go to the beach, go visit many many places or even watch movies~I dun even haf time to catch back my neauty sleep!!!! But i seriously I can't squeeze time out lehz!!!~ Happening life not equals to happy life manz~ Mayb Gary and Zhiqi is right, I've overloaded myself~ I should learn to reject 'appointments'. Haiz~ Or mayb im so toned down recently that Im now more yearn towards a quiet life~ I juz feel like taking things slow and do stuff when i feel like it. Zhiqi and Daryl's going Langkawi for hooliday for 4 days~ I promised to go wif them but seriously dun haf the time. Sorri babes~ Haiz~ i also wan to go there to relax manz~ It looks so quiet and peaceful there, so nice to unwind and relax~ I also wan to go Tioman Island!!! Go diving and juz enjoy the beautiful beach~ wahhhhzzzz......

Okaez wadever~ mayb tis is the side effect of exams--> sick of life. Hope i'll get over it by the time exam's over~ Mayb I'll find back the fun from the busi life again~

Okay...back to study~ Blarz~ =x

::__. eXquisTic . SoPhiStIcaTion____::
Friday, November 19, 2004